One of the fundamental truths of my life is that God has a very strange sense of humor and He has chosen me to be the brunt of the nudity jokes. Yes, me, the shyest kid in town, especially when it comes to seeing someone else naked, or (shudder!) someone seeing me naked. To say that I was a teenage prude would be an understatement. I did not even believe in thinking about people being naked. People are naked under their clothes? Aaagh!
I dreaded the start of fifth grade, because in PE class you had to change into PE clothes and take showers when it was over. Not just any kind of private, in-your-own-bathroom kind of shower, but one big tiled room full of shower heads where you had to be naked in front of other boys. Other boys like fat Tiger Bates who taught me the facts of life with only a few major distortions. Other boys like Kevin Swello who had hair in places we didn’t even want to know about, let alone see. Coming of age and facing the world of locker rooms and shower rooms and boys’ PE was one of the hardest things for me.
Well, I made it through that part of my childhood by telling God all about it and being strengthened by Him. But then, He decided never to let me forget about it. College in the 70’s was wilder than my little-town morals could take. I avoided Dorm drinking parties where party-goers sometimes played strip poker seriously with members of the opposite sex. When one of my two roommates decided to go streaking on his motorcycle, I avoided getting caught up in it in any way. Well, of course, everybody avoided that particular bit of stupidity, because it was snowing and the temperature was below zero. Ol’ Wildman Beckham nearly froze off parts of himself that he could ill afford to lose to frostbite. There were a lot of things to avoid in college.
I was always a very good artist, though, and as a raw talent I took Art classes even though I was an English Major. That led to the biggest blushing of my young life. Level 4 Drawing Class was drawing the human figure from life. I didn’t realize what that actually meant until halfway through the third week of that class. That is when the first nude model walked in to class. Dang! I was red in the face for the rest of the week. The mostly female class giggled behind their hands at me. The teacher, the illustrious department head, Dr. Louise Broffert, said things to us that just made it worse. “You know there is a difference between art and pornography,” she said, glaring at the few male members of the class. “It is mainly a matter of focus and point of view. I expect not to see any of the wrong point of view!” Oh, God! And pretty as that first model was, I was unfortunate to be sitting in a position where her innermost secrets were obvious and well-lit in front of me.
And it got worse. Students in Art 4 and above were asked to be the models! Guys as well as girls were expected to take their turns. Besides, you made ten dollars per session for posing for your classmates. Oooh! The memory still makes me shiver. As well as it should. It was a Winter Quarter class. Fortunately, my turn coincided with a bout of the flu. I was infectious on my day and couldn’t attend. Even better, I got a note from student services suggesting I better not risk further exposure to the cold. God put me through several sleepless nights of the sweats, but in the end He made a way out for me. Of course, I ended up with a C in that class. The lowest course grades I got in college were both C’s that I got from Art classes.
God was not done teasing me about it yet. I learned while studying Shakespeare and the Elizabethans that there existed in their time a sect who called themselves the Adamites. They were named for the Garden of Eden and Adam in his natural state. The idiots tried to build for themselves a Utopian society, a popular thing at the time, and they walked around their little gated communities buck naked all the time. Well, I have to say, I got a good laugh out of reading about them, without ever realizing it was my doom to meet their modern-day counterparts.
As a young teacher in South Texas, teaching English to Spanish-speaking Junior High students, I took up with a pretty Latino Lady, lovely Isabella Daniels. She was divorced from one Gringo already, and not quite willing to commit to another. Hence, we never married. She was, however, a liberated lady living in a world after the Sexual Revolution and before the dampening effects of AIDS. She was not as shy about her naked charms as I was. My parents lived near Austin, so we often went for the weekend to the Austin area. I stayed with my folks, she stayed with her sister. The thing is, her sister lived in a clothing-optional apartment complex on Manor Road in Austin. It would be my first experience visiting naturists and nudists where they lived.
The apartment complex was built a lot like an English fortress from Elizabethan times. It was a huge rectangle with a central court yard cut off from view of all the surroundings. The first time I picked Isabella up there, I was put off by the iron bars on the gate. The entry portal was completely cut off from the world at large by locks. I had to ask the bearded gate guard to let Isabella know I was there. When he had spoken with her, he came back to get me and asked me to come in. He was naked! I had only seen his head in the barred gateway window. I didn’t get the full Monty until he ushered me inside. And there was no beauty in him at all. Hair everywhere, like ol’ Kevin with a beard.
Inside I found a grassy courtyard with a swimming pool in the center. Two young girls, they must have been nine or ten, were skinny dipping in the pool and having a whee of a time. There was a pool table beside the swimming pool, under the shadowy canopy of the second story balcony. Around the pool table a number of portly men were playing pool and bickering with each other completely in the buff. As I waited, my eyes ended up fastened on two young ladies that wore t-shirts, but no pants at all. One of them noticed me looking and tugged at the front of her t-shirt as if to cover up. After that one little ineffective movement, however, they took no more notice of me, standing there all gawky and red in the face.
Isabella never let me live down the expression she saw on my face when she collected me that first time. She laughed roundly at my expense. She invited me to stay there too. I would have none of it. She had no shame about walking about in the all-together, but I was not trained to be that way.
From the times I had to visit her there I learned quite a bit about naturists.
They are not what I expected. They tend to be reasonable people in all other ways, bankers, lawyers, computer programmers, and Postal Service delivery persons. They just have this nutty habit of stripping nude and walking around like that. They don’t understand my reluctance and inhibitions any more than I understand them. But they are not bad and immoral people. The place was not a gawd-awful orgy site. It was a quiet conservative domicile where naked people lived.
Mark Twain once said in the Diary of Adam and Eve that naked people have very little influence in society. This is generally true. The naturists don’t want that influence. They just want to be left alone. They will, however, proselytize. After Isabella and I broke up, I encountered naturists again when I took up stamp collecting. I found some stamp-collectors and traders in Florida that were also practicing naturists. Besides selling stamps by mail order, they ran a naturist park near Tampa and sold naturist publications of all kinds. They wanted me to come to Florida for my Summer Vacation from school, and they promised to gradually teach me to be a naturist. They wanted me to join the ANS (American Naturist Society) and I ended up buying a number of books from them and learning about their gentle philosophy of family naturism. Nudists, I discovered, are mostly married, have families, and are quite fat, not beautiful in the least. Also, they are worldwide. There is a strong naturist movement in England where they even have a school; I think it’s like a high school, where all the students are nude. The FKK in Germany (Frei Korper Kultur) has most of the beaches on the North Sea draped with naked people. They must only play naked on the beach there, huh? The North Sea is definitely not warm enough for me!
So you can see, God has gotten a good laugh out of me and my reluctance to embrace the body He blessed me with. I am NOT a naturist now, if that’s what you’re thinking. I don’t take my clothes off in public. But, I know people who do. And I am not as shocked and horrified by it as I once was.
I hope you can forgive all my pictures of naked people. I am not trying to become a pornographer. Remember, Dr. Broffert says that it is all a matter of perspective.
This last picture is actually depicting a pair of Snow Babies.
Catch a Falling Star 
Aunty Entropy Moves In
Mother Nature’s sister is one of those rich relatives you don’t really like, but have to endure. She tends to take charge of everything and ruin all your plans. Yes, we do not throw a party when Aunt Entropy comes to visit. Well, at least not the happy kind of party where everybody has fun. Aunt Entropy has come to stay for a while and take things apart.
One thing Aunt Entropy likes about Texas is its utter dedication to fracking and oil money. High profit motives have continued to force oil companies to pump toxic liquids into the underground to break apart shale and push out the oil. We have fracking to thank for lower gas prices and Fox News talking points about no longer being dependent on evil ookie-icky foreign oil. We also have it to thank for the current condition of the foundation of my little house. Alternating years of flooding and drought have expanded and contracted the small hill the house sits on so much that the front end of the house has all but cracked off. The frequent Dallas area earthquakes have no doubt helped this process. Auntie Entropy clucks her tongue at it. “Insurance doesn’t have to pay for this because you should have invested in foundation repair long ago. It isn’t earthquake damage, it is neglect!” Of course, my healthcare costs over the last decade have completely prevented any notion of paying out for foundation repair. No one would loan a deadbeat former teacher money for household repairs just because he is old and broke and decrepit. Lovely caring woman, that Aunt Entropy.
The fracking related sinkhole under Wink, Texas… those lines around it are roads and highways.
The Grandbury, Texas parking lot sinkhole which formed after heavy rain and a long history of fracking.
Aunt Entropy is, after all the personification of the 2nd Law of Thermodynamics in the science of physics. To put it simply, Entropy is a process by which matter and energy progress from a beginning state all the way to a final state. In the case of our universe, the process goes from the Big Bang of creation to the final star winking out at the end of the universe as we now know it. Entropy means the progress we are making towards the ultimate ends of death and decay. Every action we take leads to a consequence and a further action until we are dead. Not just me. Not even just you and me. But all of us, everywhere in the universe. This is why the little things where our lives break down make Auntie Entropy smile when nothing else will.
Here are some things that make Auntie Entropy smile;
The Orange King with golden crown and tiny hands may be our next president.
The hatred and self-aggrandizement that he campaigns on have taken root in the fertile soil of fear and hatred that Fox News and conservative leaders have tilled and toiled over for so long. They are beginning to bud with flowers… if you can call weeds flowers. And they are bound to produce poisonous fruits.
Mickey’s car is breaking down again because of heat. After paying over a thousand dollars to get pot-hole damage to the front tire and rim repaired, the coolant pump gave out and had to be replaced. Now the overheating warning light comes on daily and we are forecast to have dangerous levels of heat in Texas weather for the next few days. I am going to have to decide whether to spring for more car repair, or go see the doctor about the pain in my extremities. I won’t be able to afford both. Oh, my aching bank account!
My wife is overseas in the Philippines spending a month with her family after the death of her father. But she left her green card here. I had to express mail it to her for a large amount of postage cost and risk losing it along the way in the mail. She might never be able to return to this country. Well, I do see that as a bad thing, after all.
So while Aunt Entropy is visiting… or rather living here permanently, and feeding us her bad-luck salad made with equal parts misery, misfortune, and mayonnaise, we must learn to endure her wicked sense of humor and micro-managing ways.
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