I have been very limited for over a week in the amount of time I have to spend on writing and blog posting. The start of a new novel has been delayed. My posts have been short… and hopefully also sweet. I have relied some on re-blogging old posts. Depression is a demanding illness. It requires the sacrifice of time, the sacrifice of energy, and even the sacrifice of self. It can go so far as to demand the sacrifice of a human life. And it can require you to offer up those things even when you are not the one depressed yourself. Though I must admit, my health and mood have suffered through hospital visits, business arrangements made without money to spend, only mortifying promises of doing whatever you can. And then doing those things. And at the same time I have earned zero dollars from Uber.
Ghosts from the past, long dead emotions, and ancient regrets all arise from crypts you have been keeping them in to remind you that you are mortal after all and subject to the slings and arrows that flesh is heir to. And you must become a ghost-buster. How do you do it? How do you defeat the phantoms of past deeds and devilments?
Of course, Science can help. You need professional help from a real psychiatrist, especially if you can find a good one. The doctor we found is one who saved our family from darkness once before. This time a mood drug called Lexipro and vitamin D supplements helped. Before it was too much cortisol, the stress chemical, and lack of serotonin that threw things out of balance. Better life through proper medication is actually a thing.
And a sense of humor doesn’t hurt. Dr. Pinkenstein was not our psychiatrist. But if he makes us laugh about things… well, laughter really is good medicine.
And I have sailed these waters and fought these devils before. My little boat was easier to navigate this time because I had a map through the labyrinth that I drew for myself before. Experience and the wisdom to learn from it is seriously a super power.
Up, up, and away, me! We have come out of the darkness again, and it is time to get our lives back on track.